Wordless Wednesday - Yay mail!

Ella's Amber necklace arrived

The fitted diapers from BebeMellons arrived.

The Return of Sanity

Right now I'm blogging on the floor in my kitchen.  You're probably wondering why.  Well, my daughter is sleeping where my computer is and I'm a loud typer.  I'd rather not wake her up just yet.
Things are somewhat improving since I started my experiment.  Though I now have other factors working against me now.  I have a Parent/Teacher conference coming up, I've been trying to get Dedrick to be more responsible for his stuff, and suddenly Ella won't sleep unless she's in my arms/bed.  This is on top of all the other things I need to deal with right now.
However, I really enjoy this time to myself.  At least now I get a chance to eat breakfast now.

Wordless Wednedsay - Presents

I would have a picture of Dedrick with his present, but he came home with bad news and I got distracted.

Wordless Wednesday - Sisterly love

Looking for the silver lining

Today was a long day.  Today there were fights and naps didn't get taken when they should have.

However, today we also had moments where my girls got along just like this.  It was definitely one of those, "You have to take the good with the bad." kind of days.

I know there will be more, but I hope 10 years from now I'll remember the good in the bad day rather than just the bad.

Only child kind time

Today was Ella's day to be an only child.  I try to have days where each of my children can pretend they're an only child.  The only child that gets my attention.  The one that decides what we eat, where we go, and what we do when we get there.  I have three children and two hands.  I don't always have enough time in the day to give them individual love and attention like I would like to.

So, today was Ella's day.  Greg took the older two out to a corn maze and a hay ride while Ella stayed home with me.  We played on the floor, I sang to her, and we cuddled as long as she wanted to.

I started doing this after I had my first daughter.  Dedrick had a very hard time making the transition from being an only child to being a big brother.  Our special days made the transition a little easier for him.  Even Greg has gotten into the act and will take time to do special trips for just one child.  He took Dedrick on a just him and Grandpa fishing trip recently.  They had a lot of fun and it was really needed because Greg has been working a lot of hours lately.

When Ella gets older I'll be able to do this more often, but until then I'll do what I can.  I just think it's important for me to spend one on one time with my children as often as I can.

Do you make time for special one on one days for your children?

Ella Rose

I've been putting off my post about Ella.  She's very young and how I felt about her was complicated.  I resented her for a bit.  I resented the fact she made my plans more complicated.  I resented the fact she caused us to need a bigger vehicle.

She's here now though and these things aren't her fault.  I find the more time I spend with her the more I appreciate her uniqueness.  The more I realize she completes our family.  She's a bundle of energy and giggles.  I love how observant she is.  She loves to try and attack my keyboard/cellphone/whatever electronic is within her reach.  She especially loves my cellphone because it's a touch screen phone.  She's realized that if she touches the screen that it does stuff.

Watching her learn and grow has become the upturn to my day.  I regretted Ella, but I'm accepting of her now.  Being a parent isn't easy.  Being a mother isn't easy and as much as people don't want to admit it sometimes you don't love your children right away.  Sometimes it takes time to love them.  You're only human and this is okay.